on the verge of a breakdown

these few days have been quite a horror for me.

despite having my own personal problems, i still am faced with the duty of helping others.
from having to save other ppl's asses and filling in their duties,
to being questioned about things and having to take responsibility when it wasn't mine in the first place. if it had been mine, none of this would've happened.
even with my sacrifices, ppl still question and claim that it's not fair on their parts.
but what about me?
who do i complain to?
do i have to bear the brunt of every single thing, just because others can't stand up to it?
why am i still the bearer although i've given in more than my part?

why is it that the one person i want to help most is me, but yet i can't do that.
i can only help others but who helps me?
who helps me.....
:( :( :( :(